Tuesday, 15 November 2016

A Letter to Freddie on his Second Birthday

Dear Frog,

I wanted to write you a little letter on the day you turn two whole years old. I hope one day you might read this and know just how loved you are.

I still can't believe you are two.  Daddy and I have just been watching some videos from your first birthday,  you look so tiny!  Over the last 12 months you have turned from a baby to a boy, You are now walking and running and learning new things everyday.  You are the happiest, brightest little button.  You are stubborn and know your own mind too which I love.  But you can also be shy and unsure and need encouraging, but once you get your confidence there is no stopping you. I have no doubt you will do amazing things with your life my boy.

 We are in centre parks at the moment with Daddy, Grandad, Ninny, Uncle Adam, Auntie Emma, Auntie Donna and 'Beban'.  You are so excited to be on holiday and are in your absolute element spending all day exploring the great outdoors.  You particularly love the singing reindeer and have learnt all their names.  Today you are off to football camp then we are going to the pancake house for lunch which I know you will love as you have a bit of a sweet tooth like your Daddy.

You are the luckiest little boy on earth to have the most incredible family who just adore you.  So many grandparents, Great Grandparents, Aunties, Uncles and Cousins who all love the bones of you, who not only spoiled you rotten for your birthday with the kindest, most thoughtful gifts, but are most importantly always there for you, and always will be.  You really are so, so loved, by so, so many. Your love of life and happy smile is contagious.  You really are a joy to be around.

The last two years have been a rollercoaster, we have been through a lot together and although life isn't easy at the moment but your happy little face gets us all through, and your smile always makes grandad feel better.

The three of us really are the three musketeers, We spend all our time together and even though daddy has to go to work lots, you love your special 'boy time' and cuddles with daddy in bed in the mornings.  You still sleep with us at some point most nights which we love, you love to nestle into our backs and you love to stroke mummy's skin or daddy arm while you dream.  We have so much fun don't we? Playing at home, going to the park, running through the woods, visiting our friends and family and snuggling up to watch disney films.  Not only are you my son, but you are my best friend too.

When you were in my tummy I always wondered what you would look like, but now you are here, growing every day, it seems obvious what you would have looked like.  You may only be two years old but I feel like I have known you forever, you look so familiar like I might have seen you in my dreams in years gone by.  I suppose you are part of me, we are the same you and me.

Daddy and I often lie in bed, with you asleep between us and daddy always says to me "how did we get this lucky".  And he is right. I feel blessed every day to have you in our lives. You make us so unbelievably happy and proud, every time you do something cute or learn something new, or say new phrase my heart swells like it could burst out of my chest.

I remember when they placed you on my chest, seconds after you were born, I was overwhelmed with love for you, I loved you so so much it hurt.  I didn't think I could love you any more than I did right then, but you give me new reasons to love you every day.

Thank you for coming into my life. Thank you for making daddy a daddy and me a mummy.  It isn't always easy, we are all learning so much along the way.

Happy Birthday my darling.  I hope you always know how much Daddy and I love you.  You may be two but you always be my 8lb 6 ounce chubby faced baby boy.

All my love,  forever and always.

Mummy xxxxxxx

Wednesday, 9 November 2016

Wedding Series - The Bridesmaids

I know, I know it has been like three months since the wedding, but I have had lots of posts written and ready to complete my wedding series, that I didn't want to post until we had our wedding pictures back! Our photographer did not disappoint, his photos are better than I could have imagined so it is worth the wait I promise.

I had 4 beautiful bridesmaids, My sister, my friend Lauren who I have known since secondary school,  and Amy and Jade who are the finances of two of mine and Chris's friends and who have turned out to be two of my favourite girls of all time.  I really think I had the best bridesmaid tribe, they absolutely excelled at the Hen Do's, and treated me like a princess, I honestly could to be more grateful the love and friendship they showed me over those crazy months.

The Gifts...

As soon as we arrived at Salomons the girls couldn't wait to give me their gifts, and I was absolutely blown away. I sobbed... and sobbed... and sobbed.. and sobbed some more.  Not only did they buy me a beautiful bracelet engraved with mine and Chris' name, but Jade made some beautiful personalised bridesmaid glasses and then they gave me an incredible book, with all the memories from my hen do, not only was it filled with all the photos but they had got messages from everyone who came to my Hens, the first one was from my my mum.  I read it and sobbed and sobbed and sobbed... you get the picture, there was a lot of sobbing going on.  My girls done good and I am still overwhelmed by all they did for me, so girls if you're reading this, I bloody love you.

I spent months trawling the internet for the perfect gift for my girls, there were lots of typical bridesmaid gifts, which were all lovely but I really wanted something extra special and something that they could use and keep and not just get forgotten in a draw.  I eventually found and fell in love with these gorgeous leather bags for them, in deep navy, and gold trim.  They also came engraved with their initials, and were just so simple and stunning and the girls loved them.  I knew they would be able to use them on the day which was lovely too, and I have seen them all using their bags lots which is lovely, kinda wish I had one too haha!

The dresses...

I picked out their dresses over a year before the wedding, possibly before I even had a venue, but I saw them on Asos and in the sale and fell in love!  The girls all looked incredible in them.  In the gorgeous sunshine and against the blue suits they looked stunning.  So many people have commented what a gorgeous alternative they were to normal bridesmaid dresses,  I just loved them. such a shame Oasis have discontinued them! They wore there hair up with some gyp tucked in and all wore white/pale pink heeled candles with natural make up.  I was so emotional when I saw them all ready, they looked beautiful.

I was so nervous before the ceremony and they really kept me together, I think we all hugged like a million times. They all cried so much through the ceremony, all I could hear while we were saying our vows was them sniffing, was so funny, all the guests have commented on the bridesmaids crying.  it really was so emotional. We all had so much fun together, sleepover the night before all crammed on two air beds,  getting the cake in the morning, the excitement of getting ready was definitely one of my favourite bits of the whole day! we were like squealing school girls.  We nearly knocked our selves out peaking at the boys arriving then when they looked up we bundled onto the floor smacking our heads together, it was so funny.

I couldn't have wished for better bridesmaids, or friends.  although that being said, you know how your bridesmaids are supposed to help you pee? did mine? well they attempted too but they were bloody useless and they ended up in a heap on the toilet floor, hysterically laughing at me, and I almost definitely did get wee on me hahaha.  even just thinking about it has me crying with laughter.  these stories are the best stories, weddings aren't about the fancy flowers or the lovely decor, its about the little moments.  the moment your pregnant bridesmaid is rolling on the toilet floor laughing at your.

Love you girls.

Freddie at Two Years Old

I haven't posted in a while,  life has been pretty shit as those close to us will know, I have a back log of posts that I have written that I hope to share once I start feeling a bit more positive.  However, a week today our little human turns 2, so I couldn't not write an update on our gorgeous little man.  I will probably write a soppy post on his birthday, so here is just a nice little summery of what Freddie William is up to at almost 2 years old.

Freddie has turned into a real little boy over the last few weeks, but there are still glimpses of my baby there.  It isn't always easy but I am trying so hard to cherish every moment with him,  I adore how fiercely independent he is becoming but it makes me realise we are well and truly out of the baby phase now.  He is still super cuddly though and is becoming more of a mummy boy, although he still worships his daddy.  he loves his family so much as loves to list his "famawy" which is super cute.  he loves all his extended aunties and uncles too, and talks about them all the time.  So proud of what a loving little boy he has become.

Freddie is now 11kg - Finally! He is back up to the 25th centile, still so diddy bless him but you can tell he is now starting to fill out a bit.  Clothes are still a bit of a nightmare, he is still in some 9-12, some 12-18 and some 18-24. Drives me crazy! He is so diddy around his waist but does have quite long legs.  Today his shoes suddenly seem to be a bit tighter - I can't complain though, he has been the same size shoes since September 2015! so his shoe collection is pretty impressive!

He eats fairly well.  We are still in the 'beige' phase,  So I am having to be creative with his food.  We had a breakthrough and he will now eat sweetcorn and peas but still nothing 'wet'.  He does love his fruit, and is getting more and more adventurous at trying new things. He always has porridge with honey or Weetabix for breakfast and loves cheese sandwiches.  His eating does get me down a little bit but I try not to let it, I know its a phase and definitely more behavioural than 'fussy'. The consultant he saw recently to see if he has the same nut allergy as me (he doesn't woohoo) said he looked very healthy and I shouldn't worry.  I do give him vitamins and he still drinks plenty of milk.  I do not believe in the 'he will eat it if he is hungry' approach so I am just serving things I know he likes with one new thing a day.  Amazing how incredible he was at weaning, cold pureed broccoli was his favourite, followed by Jamaican curried pork and yet here we 2 years down the line with a toddler saying cucumber is yucky.

I want to do a separate post on sleeping, but he is now finally sleeping at least 8 hours every night and sometimes as long as 13 hours and probably 5 nights out of 7 he wakes once.  He goes down really happily at 7, He asks to go to bed and asks us to leave "bye mama shut door".  When/if he wakes he comes in with us, we don't mind we just want sleep and have never seen an issue with it, co-sleeping is something we hugely support (keep eyes peeled for another post).  Just a few months ago he was still waking several times every night so I am pretty happy with how things are currently.  Luckily he isn't an early riser either, usually wanting to get up for breakfast between 8 and 9.  He also has a 2 hour nap if we are at home, but just grabs zzz' in the car if we are out.

His talking is my favourite thing, it would be easier to write the things he can't say!  He blows me away with his speech, he is talking to us in 3 word sentences and will attempt to copy any word he hears (including bollocks... oops) he has started saying "luff ooo" which is my favourite, and he loves to tell people his whole name.  His pronunciation has come on a lot in the last few weeks too.  He can count to 8, and from 5 to 1 backwards too.  He has gotten so good at following instructions, which is also flipping useful when I want him to get me something, I won't have long before he doesn't think it is fun, so I am making the most of it haha! One of the funniest things he does is shout for me calling me 'Madge' which is Mr P's nickname for me, or he will wake me up by stroking my face and whispering babe in my hear, which i find hysterical. He says please and thank you and pardon me which is so funny, and if you don't say pardon me he gives you a very stern look.  He also says 'your welcome' if you say thank you too him, he is like a little old man!

Freddie Loves...

  • Disney films - his current favourite is Jungle Book and he is obsessed with the Elephant scene, he spends ages every day marching up and down shouting "elephants marching singing" and always exclaims "baby elephant".  As we get towards tea time he loves to snuggle under a blanket on the sofa and watch his favourite films, He will watch a whole film too, so I make the most of it!
  • He still loves playing cars, trains, buses, airports and farms.  He is getting really into his imaginative play now and talks for them, and gives his animals "Mulk" and "ninner".
  • He asks to the park every day, he is never happier when he is running outdoors, we spend the majority of our time outdoors, roaming fields, woods and parks.  So when we are home I don't feel guilty about indulging in some sofa sitting and disney film watching.
  • He loves painting and learning how to do new things, he can be so wild but also a thinker like his dad, he is very capable with his hands, and enjoys making things, gluing things and generally getting crafty. 
  • He is dinosaur mad at the moment too which is super cute, he has started playing little made up dinosaur games inspired by 'Andy's dinosaur adventures' and he says things like uh oh mummy a t-rex... and pretends to run with dinosaurs. I have been really impressed with his imagination, he makes up little scenarios with his people and makes them talk to each other, its so flipping cute.
  • He absolutely LOVES to sing, which he gets from me.  and honestly it just makes my heart swell with so much pride, he sings let it go and knows most of the words now but is usually too eager and ahead of the music haha.  he really goes for it when we are in the car and can be herd belting out his fave songs over the sound of the radio.  It makes me so excited to see where his interests and talents lie as he gets older. 

Don't get me wrong he can be super hard work, of course, like any toddler, he trashes the house, he won't pose nicely for photos much anymore and would rather mush his food into the floor than eat it, which drives me crackers but we still feel so blessed.  We have entered the terrible 2 tantrums but I am coping quite well actually, I just really don't let it bother me, people stare in Asda when he was lying on the floor screaming over wanting to buy chocolate at the till (seriously why do supermarkets do that!!!) but let them stare, I really don't care, I know I am a good mum, I know he is just being two, and i'll never see them again anyway haha.  Although he can throw a killer tantrum 95% of the time he is my happy little frog, he doesn't winge or whine, which I find a blessing but when he goes he goes, but it stops as quick as it starts and we move on.  The Last year has gone so quickly,we have experienced so much together, explored new places, been on so many exciting family adventures, and we have all changed so much, we have grown together, and grown as a family.

I can't believe this time two years ago I was preparing for his imminent arrival.  What a wonderful whirlwind it has been.