Wednesday, 25 October 2017

Ottilie's three month update

Wow, it feels like yesterday since I wrote Freddie's 4 month update, which was one of my first posts.  I had of course planned to document Ottilie's development etc from birth, but I am sure if you follow my Instagram page you will know all about our little darling's first 3 months. 

I am going to try and keep it brief and give a little summary of how she is doing, being a second baby means there's no list of baby groups or baby swimming to update you on as there was with Freddie, haha.  Her main activities include, being put in and out her car seat, watching Freddie play football and being put in her bouncer about 100 times a day, honestly second. baby. problems. 

Ottilie now weighs about 13lbs, she is still just below the 25th centile, although I doubt this has anything to do with being born early as F was totally the same and only reached above the 25th centile after he was 2 years old.  She is a real dinky donut, with very petit features.  her hair is falling out now and a new auburn fluff is growing back in! She is still wearing 0-3 month clothes, although outfits in 0-3 months are still far to big, but she does have a few 3-6 month things that fit! kids clothing sizes are crazy!

I will definitely be popping another post up all about our breast feeding journey, as it really has been quite a journey.  To me, breastfeeding is a constant rollercoaster of "it's going well"... "oh no, maybe it isn't"... "am I under feeding her, is she hungry"... "am I starving my baby"... "am I feeding her too much"... "I love breastfeeding".... "I loathe breastfeeding"... and then basically repeat 100 times.  In all honesty I adore breastfeeding.  It is repairing the sadness and anger I feel that I was unable to breastfeed F.  Even on the hardest days, I know I wont give up. I am setting myself small goals to reach.  and now I know I am so close to the six month mark, I will keep going and then re-evaluate.  Although, I would love to feed her until she reaches a year old and then I know I would feel satisfied, she is my last baby and I don't want to regret any decisions I make on a bad day.  She is feeding well, but is a total boob monster, if it was up to Ott's she would just hang of my nip all day!  I try to express a feeds worth everyday to give her when I want to go out, otherwise it takes so long to get out stopping every 15 minutes to feed, we never get anywhere.  she is starting to go longer periods in between and everyone tells me it is totally normal, so fingers crossed the intensity eases more over the next few weeks.  I am really lucky that she takes a bottle well too, so if I need a break I can have one.  I am also happy for MR P to give her a formula, mainly when I am feeling like I can't do it anymore and that gives me the space I need to re-evaluate and get back on track, if that makes sense? She is growing well with lots of wet nappies so I must be doing something right. 


Following on from feeding, her feeding routine goes something like - 6/7am feed, 10-11 feed, 12pm feed, then I usually get a good 3 hour break, which might just be down to that she is usually in her pram or in the car for these periods and falls asleep. then has a mid afternoon feed and from about 5pm enters her fussy period. This is as fun as it sounds, she basically feeds and wriggles for a good few hours, it's broken up with a kick on her play mat or a bath, but she pretty much just wants to be on or near the boob all evening. However I cannot complain because at about 10pm, she goes to sleep and then sleeps until the morning.  IT is some kind of miracle.  If you have followed me for a while you will know Freddie is the most awful sleeper, yet here I am with a baby that has been sleeping through since about 8 weeks! I know, I know it's ok to hate me, but I deserved a baby that sleeps, I have paid my dues haha.  After her 6am feed she usually goes back to sleep until around 9ish, although it depends what her brother is up too as his favourite thing to do is wake her up.  I don't believe in trying to routine a baby at all, and I am being solely led by her, we feed on demand and done force naps etc and will not be doing any kind of sleep training if she stops sleeping so well.  I really believe just relaxing and following your baby's lead, you will naturally find your own routine.  And of course being a second baby means she has to slot around Freddie so her routine generally fits with our usual daily routine anyway.  I've said routine a lot for someone who doesn't use routines haha!
Ottilie's Favourite things:
Ottie is really starting to become her own little person now, and we can start to see who she might be.  Her favourite thing by a mile is to watch her brother.  Her little face lights up when she sees Freddie and she cranes her neck to look for him when she hears his voice.  She adores her bouncy chair (just as well haha) and loves this little orange monkey that hangs from it.  She loves to lay in her cot and look at the twinkly lights and she loves to be snuggled up in really soft blankets and rocked slowly.  She gives her daddy the biggest smiles when he comes home from work but is a total mummy's girl.  She rarely is happy to cuddle anyone else, and is usually looking for mummy (I mean its not me its the boobs) after about 10 minutes with someone else ( ok 5, maybe 2, sorry everyone!) She has already had a super busy three months, she has been to the New Forest, Ferry to the Isle of Wight.  She has been pumpkin picking and to the farm.  And not forgetting countless park trips, lunch trips and meals out! She is starting to show an interest in her bunny from Freddie too, which is just heart melting. 
This week I have seen a huge leap in her development.  She was born 4 weeks early so her corrected age today at 15 weeks old is 11 weeks old and I would say in terms of development that is about right.  She can now see further and is spotting me from afar, or can obviously see Freddie from the other side of the room.  She is reacting to people talking to her from a distance and not just if they are right in front of her.  She is cooing more every day, and is on the edge of a proper belly laugh I think.  She has the biggest gummy smile and when she smiles her arms and legs jerk in sheer delight, it is super cute.  Her head control is still slightly behind, she hates tummy time too which doesn't help, but I know she will get there in the end.  She is finally a lot more awake in the day, she has been super sleepy for most of her life, which is down to her being a 36-weeker.  I used to worry about how sleepy she was, and I wish already that I had just enjoyed and appreciated it more because now she gets a little strop on if she wants entertaining.  She is always craning her neck to see what is going on, little nosy parker. 
I cannot believe our little Ottilie Iris is three months old.  I just can't quite believe it.  I feel so sad that our newborn bubble is long gone and already wish I could go back and relive those early weeks.  You have completed our family Ottilie.  You made my heart grow in a way I could never imagine.  The love we feel for you is immeasurable.  You bring sunshine and happiness to our lives.  And along with your brother, I feel like the luckiest mummy alive.  Thank you for choosing me to be your mummy, my darling baby girl.  


Not crying.  definitely not crying.  nope.

Monday, 2 October 2017

Introducing Baby #2

So it has been a long time since I wrote a blog post.  If you follow me over on instagram you will know that my pregnancy went a little bit wrong from about 33 weeks and our beautiful little girl entered the world at 36 weeks. When you have everything planned out, it can be hard to accept when things don't quite go the way you expected, especially as this is my last pregnancy, I wanted it to be perfect as stupid as that sounds.  I haven't been mentally able to write our birth story, or the story that followed.  But our beautiful girl is now 12 weeks old and it is time to introduce her over on my little blog.  I have finally downloaded our gorgeous newborn shoot photographs, so what better way.  despite her being 12 weeks old, we are all very much still in a newborn bubble, trying to make time go slower and enjoying every moment with our girl.  There was a moment after she was born, I wasn't sure we would get to keep her and I want to spend every minute I can soaking her up, instead of tied to my computer or phone.  I will get back into the swing of things, I have so much I want to share here for me to look back on.  But for now, let me introduce to you;

Ottilie Iris Jane
5th July 2017 

The perfect final piece to our family jigsaw. 

It is nice to be back over here, and hopefully I will get my writing mojo back.  On a side note, I would like to thank each and every person who has commented and messaged during these 12 weeks.  It is so hard to get round to reply to everyone but your kindness has meant so much to me, especially during our neonatal stay and all the breastfeeding support we have received.   I honestly have been overwhelmed by the wonderful instagram community. So thank you, thank you so very much. 

Saturday, 20 May 2017

10 Newborn 'Must Haves' Under £50

I have always loved reading these kind of posts and I have always loved seeing what other parents rate on the baby product front.  When I had Freddie I  read tons of blogs seeing what the must have baby products were and to be honest the recommendations did not let me down and I never felt like I had bought things that were a waste or I didn't need. So I have written a list of my top baby favourites under £50! I also have another post with my top higher ticket items.  Now I know 'must haves' will always get people saying "well you don't need those things, babies used to have a drawer and a blanket and were fine" and of course you don't need all these things for your baby but if you do have money to spend on your new arrival these are the top ten items under £50 that I couldn't live without.

1. Milton Dummy Steriliser 
The cheapest of my baby must have items at only £5, I loved this milton dummy steriliser when I had Freddie.  If your baby has a dummy, you will begin many month of picking dummies off the floor! This portable dummy steriliser is brilliant. I always set it up in the morning as part of my packing the bag routine and attached it with the handy velcro strap.  I would keep the dummy inside whilst not in use and if you need to sterilise on the go, you just pop it in, twist it and voila.

2. The Gro Company Gro Egg Room Thermometer 
This product appears on pretty much every baby must have list. I loved this with Freddie, especially as our flat gets very hot and very cold it was invaluale to have a product that could accurately tell me the room tempurature.  It glows blue, yellow, orange and red to which means you can quickly identify whether the tempurature is ok without having to actually check the screen.  They are also a pretty handy nightlight! You can pick one up on Amazon for £13/£14 so a pretty good price too. Definitely an item I wouldn't be without. 

3. Whispbear The Fluffy Humming Bear
Ok so I'm not going to tell Mr P how much I spent on this but I have seen rave reviews about this product everywhere recently! For Freddie we had a Ewan the dream sheep, which was invaluable but he hasn't lasted for this baby and he had his downsides. However the Whispbear has magnetic legs so you can attach to the side of the crib without worrying it will fall onto baby, it also has a sensor so when it hears baby crying it fades in a humming/shhhing sounds for 40 minutes and then a further 20 minutes if it detects further sounds. No need to turn on and off, as soon as it hears baby, it's on it! With this being baby number 2, I won't be able to always rush straight to baby if I'm sorting Fred out so I think this is going to be super helpful and we were a big fan of white noise etc last time. At £39.99 it is expensive but not much more than Ewan and my only expensive luxury item I think. 

4. Cot top changer 
This one is a practical item and I know not everyone sees the interest of having one. I had a changing table with Freddie and I found it invaluable, it was one of my favourite baby items. This time with baby and F sharing a room, there is no room for one, until I discovered this cot top changed from Toys are us for only £24.99! It is bigger than I thought and does stick out a bit from baby's cot as she has a standard cot not a cot bed, but I know it will be worth it. Being able to change baby without clambering on the floor when i may have had another c section, and also being able to change baby out the way of her cheeky big brother is going to be so helpful. I have all the nappies etc in baskets right beside the cot, organisation and simplicity is the key to an easier life with a baby! 

5. Feeding pillow
Despite breastfeeding not working out last time I still loved my pillow. It was so helpful after my c section to take the pressure of my tummy. It's also great for smaller guests to cuddle baby on, I know Freddie will be able to cuddle baby girl properly using this. And I plan to breastfeed again so it will mostly be super useful for feeding. I LOVE this floral print one I found on Amazon for only £20 and it has removable foam so you can make it as firm or soft as you like. It's lovely quality and I just love it even more because it's floral! 
6. Shnuggle Cosy Bath Tub
I know not everyone uses a baby bath, but annoyingly our bath lets heat out so quickly it's impossible to get the bath temp right for a baby. I loved our baby bath last time, and enjoyed using it in the lounge with the lights turned down of an evening followed by lovely massage etc. Problem was even the baby bath you needed to hold baby with one arm and use a support. With this bath it's a different shape and has  bottom rest to stop baby sliding down and a soft back rest so baby is comfortable, giving you two hands to wash those tiny bods. I can definitely see why it's won lots of awards! It's a much better size for storing too, and definitely safer than baby being in with F, who  seems to think he is Shamu at every bath time! If your an Amazon prime customer you can get the bath in pink for only £19.99 too! 
7. Muslins
Are you even a parent if your don't LOVE muslins? Is there anything you can't use muslins for?! They are definitely my number 1 must have item! Freddie's have become his comforters and he has a drawer next to his bed of about 50 haha so I'm sure he will be pinching baby girls! this time I have also got some extra large muslins for swaddling, perfect for a summer baby. I have picked up some gorgeous prints from Matalan and Asda and the XL swaddling organic cotton muslin for LuLuJo Baby that is so so soft and light. You can pick up packs of 3 for £4 in Asda and primark too so they are a bargain too! 

8. Bath thermometer 
For some reason I didn't buy a digital one last time I had one of those ones that like plastic and the temperature shows on a black strip (90s style I know!) problem is by the time you lift it out the water the temp had gone, so I found it a bit stressful never quite knowing. This Tommee Tippee one is great and only £9 on Amazon so a much better price than its Phillips competitor! 

9. Tommee Tippee Steriliser
This is the exact same as I had last time, and although it hasn't lasted for another baby (I don't think I would expect it to though!) I knew I would buy the same again. I never had any issues or complaints with it. I liked the design, super easy to use and the starter packs also comes with some bottles, a dummy and a cleaning brush. Which means I don't need to buy any other bottles straight away etc unless breastfeeding doesn't work out. I loved Tommee Tippee products last time and hopefully will be just as happy with them this time! I got this on offer on Amazon for £32.99 half price. I've still included it in my under £50 list though as they run the offer a lot through the year so I am sure you can also pick one up for that price. 

10. Swaddle blanket
We swaddled Freddie from day one and will definitely be doing the same for baby girl. I didn't have an official swaddling blanket last time as I thought they were expensive and unnecessary however wriggly fred always managed to escape his swaddle and in my sleep deprived state it would often take me a couple of goes to get it right. I saw this for £10  from mothercare and decided for that price it was worth a try! I love the pretty floral pattern and it's light breathable fabric. It has velcro in place to make it nice and easy and I can't wait to snuggle baby girl up in it ready for bedtime. I'll definitely be packing this in my hospital bag too! 
I would love to hear what other products under £50 you love! Am I missing any 'must haves' for my newborn? 


Friday, 5 May 2017

Bump Diaries - 28 Weeks Pregnant

Ahhhh! I've reached the third trimester! How can I be 28 weeks pregnant?! I know I say it all the time but I just feel totally mind blown that we are here at 28 weeks! For me, the ten week countdown until induction is now on. Panic stations! 
It's been a slightly more eventful 2 weeks since my last update...

Tiredness obvs. Although I'm not sure if this is a symptom or just my life now haha. I feel like I should have it put on my answering machine.   Similar to last week I'm really aching, my pelvis and back are really feeling the effects now. I didn't experience the pelvic pain first time around,  I now suspect that baby is head down which might explain why. The other symptom that is driving me mad, and I can't remember if I've mentioned it before as I've actually had it on & off since 12 weeks, is like constant sinus pain. I am always stuffy and am waking during the night with dryest mouth, literally no amount of water helps, and I think it's because im mouth breathing! I've been told it's a pregnancy thing and well, it can bugger off quite frankly! I'm really breathless in general and even sitting up in the car leaves me feeling horrid. I'm waiting to find out if I'm aneamic which could explain the severity of symptoms. I literally feel like I'm going to pass out if I'm sitting upright too long, someone tell me they've had this too?! It's driving me bananas! 

Give me all the apples. They need to be really crunchy and have been in the fridge though. If not you will have a pregnant women's wrath to deal with. 

Diabetes and Hospital:
This has all been a bit shite this week, you may have seen my Instagram mini meltdown (thanks for all the lovely dms by the way!) - I won't bore you with too much detail as I know the ins and outs of diabetes will confuse most people but the insulin resistance is really becoming a problem. I am on triple the amount of inusin I was on now. I am eating as less carbs as possible to help, but they just have a mind of their own. I ended up in the triage unit on Tuesday thanks to my sugars climbing and climbing. They eventually got to 22 and no insulin was doing anything so I had to go in. It was good to hear baby girl doing well on the monitor, I am booked in for a scan on our return from Butlins next week so we can see how she is doing. The anxiety knowing these sugars are likely to be affecting her leaves me so tearful, I am doing everything i can, and I am feeling really let down by my medical team, which I am going to find the strength to deal with. I also have noticed a difference since I had the new pump, I'm not sure I'm really getting on with it, so again something to talk about. I'm just sitting tight & doing everything I can until we can get some answers from the scan. 

Bedroom, mood and kicks:
Wow this girl can move. Her movements are absolutely incredible, she keeps me up until about 2 every morning as I just can't sleep through her huge rolls. Mr P and Freddie have felt her so much this week. I love seeing their expressions when they feel her little knees sticking out, all the feels! 
I've definitely been feeling a bit down this week. Just because the frustrations of diabetes and pregnancy and feeling let down by the hospital. But my mood has definitely been lifted by our little trip away, I got some lovely new maternity clothes, got dressed up for a wedding, got my nails done etc so that was a lovely pick me up. I don't remember being so emotional with Fred, I wonder if it's a girl pregnancy thing?! 

The best thing this week is we finally got the bedroom done. A few finishing touches are needed but I am so in love with it! There will of course be a post coming, as I can't wait to share with you. I'm so impressed how we've made a small space work and look so good, it's also really helped with the fact we won't be moving before baby comes. If you saw my Insta you will see we lost our dream house in the ruthlessness that is buying a house here, and as of yet there really is nothing on the market remotely close to what we want so I've had to accept there will most likely be no move in 2017, so doing up there room has definitely helped me feel better about it.  I can finally start buying more clothes etc, there really is something so special about folding away all those first clothes. I've been organising and reorganising the drawers a million times already! There's just something so special about preparing for a baby isn't there! 

Would love to hear how you are feeling at 28 weeks, I know there are lots of you with very close due dates to me! 

Thank you for reading lovelies.. next stop 30 weeks!!! 


Before it's over...

I found out I was pregnant in November, that seems forever ago now. I feel like I've been pregnant for the longest time and I still have ten weeks to go. Yet, unlike my first pregnancy I have never wished forward the weeks. I've been excited to reach milestones, yes, but I've never wanted the weeks to hurry. 

I've been feeling a strange kind of feeling the last few weeks. With now only 11 weeks until we meet our baby, I can see the end is near. My heart skips a beat with excitement and anticipation when I think about holding our sweet little girl but I also feel overwhelmed with sadness. 

Despite having the risks my diabetes brings to this baby and my pregnancy, I love being pregnant. From the moment I conceived, both times, I felt different. Special. Like I was in a bubble. It's hard to explain, unless you've felt it too. People say that I'm glowing, and I dont think it's necessarily in the physical sense, but more an aura, I feel like my feet are half an inch of the ground. I'm proud of my body, I love what my body is doing, I love that growing tummy, I just love being pregnant. But of course, loving pregnancy this much, means I miss it all the more when it's over.

I remember as a little girl, imaging having a baby in my tummy one day. Laying in bed pushing my tummy out and imagining what it would be like. With Freddie's pregnancy I was so anxious, unsure and impatient I don't feel i embraced it enough, if I cherished it enough. 

You see, the reason I'm so emotional about this is I know this will be my last pregnancy. Even writing that gives me such a huge pang. Almost like I'm mourning that I will never be pregnant again. 

I know it seems so final to hear a 24 year old say that this is their last baby. I know it won't be easy. Having my babies young means so many friends will be having babies in the next 10 years, I'll have done the baby thing and I will undoubtedly find myself painfully broody. If I could be pregnant and not have a baby then I would do that, but I know we only want two children. For many reasons, many practical, costs are a huge factor, we want to be able to give our children the world, I never want to say sorry you can't go on the ski trip. I know we can more than comfortable afford two children and having funds to give them the opportunities, Holidays, bedrooms and yes material things in life is really important to us. I know many won't agree, I think saying that will probably be frowned upon by many, but hey, we can't agree on everything can we! I also want to have plenty of time to concentrate on us as a family. The bigger the family the bigger the workload, washing etc. I know that sounds a ridiculous reason for only wanting two children but Something that is something I genuinely consider. I have to think about my health and wellbeing too, I find motherhood incredible, I was born to be a mum, but it's hard, I know things will be hard with two, although twice the reward and twice the love.  Two is just perfect for us. 

But the main reason, the reason behind the front of 'washing piles and cost of holidays, is a harder one to bare. Diabetes and pregnancy come with risks. Those risks are reduced with me being younger but they are still there, hanging over me. I hate that my diabetes has decided for me how many children I will or won't have. We have been so lucky, my first pregnancy was pretty smooth, we expected Freddie to be taken to special care after birth as 95% of babies born to diabetic mothers are, but he didn't. He was born in perfect condition, with no effects from my diabetes apart from being a big 8lb 6 at 38 weeks. We asked ourselves a million times if we were wrong to consider a second child. The medical teams have no issue with us wanting a second but I tormented myself. What if we weren't lucky this time, what if a newbaby did suffer complications, what if I did. I need to be well for Freddie. Should we be grateful for one healthy child and be happy? But I knew I didn't want him as an only child. The pros outweighed the cons and if we are lucky enough to repeat our last experience and bring home our baby girl healthy and happy then we have achieved our goal. Quite honestly I don't know if I could go through the angst again, from the detailed scans we had in London we have the all clear that baby girl hasn't got any heart condtions caused by me being type 1 diabetic, the relief was immense. But I don't want to risk it again. 

I am so happy to be a family of 4, and I don't see us with 3 children, I used too, and I love 3 children families, I was one in three, I love how a family of 5 looks in a photo (is that weird) but I know this is my last baby. Despite being happy with being a four I still can't shake this sadness that I most likely will never be pregnant again.

How do I cherish it? I want to savour every moment? My weekly bump pictures and updates on the blog will be so wonderful to look back on, and I know I will cherish them. 

As I lay here in bed, it's gone midnight and baby girl has woken for her nightly round of Zumba. It's dark with only the light of my phone. The boys are snoring softly beside me but apart from their soft snores it's silent. Only I know baby girl is awake. Only I know what she's doing. I stroke my hand across my tummy and she kicks back in response just as she has since 19 weeks. I can feel a knee or an elbow rolling to my right side. There is a magic to growing a baby inside you. The wonder, what will they look like, will she have hair. The excitement of picking out names, buying little vests and choosing sheets for the cot. All the exciting milestones, the scans, the announcements, the packing of the hospital bag, the leaving home with an empty car seat. It's such a beautiful time. I wish there was a way I could bottle the feeling. Bottle the feeling of her moving under my palm in the quiet of night. 

I guess we could change our minds, you never know what the future holds. But there will always be a last pregnancy, I think this is my last and I want to treasure every moment, before it's over. 

Thursday, 27 April 2017

Bump Diaries - 26 Weeks Pregnant

Right, I know every person who writes a pregnancy update says this every single time, but I cannot believe I am 26 weeks pregnant! 26 Weeks!! The first trimester was so long but this one is just flying by! I am only 4 weeks from 30 weeks, and only 12 weeks until my week of delivery! How can this be possible.  I haven't written an update since 20 weeks, I had been doing them every two weeks but I honestly do not know where the last 6 weeks have gone!

They have been pretty plain sailing to be honest.  Is it weird that that makes me anxious.  Everything seems to be going fairly smoothly *touches wood*. I haven't got a huge amount to update on but here is a run down of how I am at 26 weeks!

Tiredness and achyness! I am cream crackered.  I am starting to really feel the effects of having a bump and chasing after a toddler.  I really don't want to have to say mummy can't do this or mummy can't do that, so I am trying to keep up with him, but after getting wedged at the top of soft play and thinking I was literally going to die up there (I mean could there be a worse place to cop it than soft play hell) I think I need to slow down a bit.  I have also been SO breathless.  I just feel so uncomfortable! Oh and my boobs are getting humungus and i'm already needing the occasional breast pad, I was totally freaked out to see I already had some *ahem* leakage, but here's hoping its a good sign for a positive breast feeding journey!

I want to eat CARBS. CAKE. BURGERS. But I am reaaaally testing my willpower and resisting.  so far I have only put on 6lbs, which considering I had lost almost 10lbs during the first trimester, means I am still not gaining huge amounts.  I am really working hard at eating a healthy balanced diet to keep baby nie and healthy and not give in to the urges to gorge on carbs and sugar.  I am still craving fruit, mainly apples and am known to eat about 5 a day haha.

My diabetes is being a bitch to put it bluntly.  My insulin needs have sky rocketed and I have well and truly hit the stage of being insulin resistant.  It is causing me a great deal of anxiety not being able to always get my sugars where I want them, it is so frustrating when I am working so hard, but it really isn't easy.  I have seen the diabetic pregnancy team again this week and we have made more changes to my pump which will hopefully make a difference.  Just another incentive to stay away from the carbs!

Scans, Shopping and Stretch Marks:
We had our 25 week growth scan last week.  I will now be having scans every 4 weeks from 20 weeks to measure babies growth.  It was such a lovely scan and the midwife was really congratulatory of how well I am looking after this baby, she said there are no signs of baby being affected by my diabetes yet, which is such a huge relief.  Her measurements were all bang on average and slightly under.  With diabetes it is the abdominal measurement they keep a close eye on and it was perfect so I was thrilled! However, she was breech! which explains the very uncomfortable breathlessness.  I know there is loads of time or her to turn but Fred was the same, breech from 20 weeks all the way until the end.  I can feel she is still breech, all her kicks are right in my nether regions just like F.  I really hope she turns but the midwife did say it could be a coincidence or that maybe there is a reason my babies are breech like the shape of my pelvis. 

I have been doing a lot of baby shopping this week, we dont actually need much and I want to keep the baby buying as minimilistic as possible. But I've made a start on vests and babygrows, absolutely in love with the bits we got in next, they do the best sleepsuits! Also picked up a few tiny hats, and a beautiful floral one from Jojo Maman Bebe. I made some of the bigger purchases too including the cot, Caboo Close wrap and a gorgeous Joie Baby rocker. There isn't too much else we need, but I will sit down soon and wrote some lists! It's funny even though I had Freddie only two years ago, I really can't remember what I need! Family and friends have already been giving us gorgeous things for baby girl, people just love to buy for babies don't they! 

I seem to suddenly have a few stretch marks creeping in, I didn't get any until the last week with Fred, and I'm not sure if I'm getting new ones or the old ones are reappearing, I'm trying to moisturise and cream as much as possible but I know there's not much I can do really, and to be honest, they don't bother me that much. 

It's not been a very exciting update, I can't believe this is my last post before the third trimester! The weeks are really flying. I can't decide if i want time to speed up or slow down though, knowing this is most probably our last baby, makes me feel so different about the whole experience. But that's for another post. 

Thanks for reading, as always xx