Sunday, 15 January 2017

Bump Diaries - First Trimester update, sickness, apples & diabetes

I still can't believe our pregnancy is public knowledge! It was SO exciting sharing our little reveal picture and we have received the most lovely messages from so many people, as always we have been so overwhelmed by all the love and support, this little bean is so super lucky.  When I had my 12 week scan, they decided I wasn't quite 12 weeks but couldn't be sure quite what the dates were, so I am going back on Thursday 19th, but it really is only a matter of days difference.

This pregnancy has been so different from my last.  I feel so well, on the whole.  I have suffered with various symptoms through various weeks but I had been hospitalised twice before 12 weeks with my first so although I have been suffering with sickness etc it has been a breeze in comparison. I have been keeping a diary so I will fill you in week by week!

5 Weeks 
We had only found out a few days earlier and at this point my symptoms were so subtle, I think my main symptoms were crazy sense of smell which is only just dying down now at 12ish weeks and my blood sugars being up and down, which I think is caused by the hormones.  Obviously it is very important to keep my blood sugars low and controlled, but sometimes the body has other ideas. Other symptoms were mainly tummy cramps, feeling hungry and tired  in the evenings.  The most bizarre symptom was waking early in the morning with buckets of energy! oh if only it had lasted!

6 Weeks 
I always feel like 6 weeks is quite a milestone.  This is when we told a couple of people close to us. Week six also saw the start of having to attend to bi-weekly Diabetes Antenatal Clinic at the hospital. This involves going to the hospital every other Tuesday for a few hours where I see the diabetes specialist nurse to look closely at my blood sugar readings, insulin needs etc, then I see the diabetes specialist midwife, then sometimes I will also have to see the high-risk obstetric consultant.  I am definitely going to do a separate post all about this for other diabetic mama's out there.  This week my symptoms were sore boobs (OMG so sore!) and just feeling really bloated and uncomfortable in myself, it sounds crazy but I just felt like I didn't recognise myself in the mirror and I can't really explain why! anyone else feel like this?! I suffered with two horrendous migraines and the gagging and nausea started. As with my first pregnancy I had a little hard bump very early on, which got bigger and smaller over a few weeks with the bloating but the monographer said I have a uterus that tilts forward and is quite high which explains it!

7 Weeks
By week 7, the tiredness was so extreme, the moment Chris was through the door from work and he had taken over with Fred, I would go to be and literally be out for the count.  I remember feeling tired with F, but nothing like this, it was horrible how out of control it made me feel, I literally could not stay awake past 7pm. The sickness started to get a little bit worse and my boobs got HUGE. Diabetes wise this is when my insulin need started to increase, so I started needing more insulin per grams of carbohydrate, your body becomes more insulin resistant when pregnant so it is a constant battle to get it right.

8 Weeks 
Week 8 the tiredness was just as bloody hideous and the sickness got worse still, although more gagging and wrenching than actually being sick, although sometimes I think this was worse! I felt really swollen still and was completely off food and drink, having to make Freddie's breakfast etc was like torture! I was hardly eating anything,just nibbling when I could bare it, I am taking lots of vitamins so I wasn't too worried.

The best bit of week 8 was that we had our first scan and saw our little bean with their little heart beating away.  It was so emotional and Freddie said the baby looked like a cheese puff!! haha.

Week 9 
CHRISTMAS!! we surprised all our close family on christmas day with cards announcing our pregnancy.  it was AMAZING and I caught some on video! It was a complete shock to everyone, I think because when I was pregnant with Fred I was so unwell in and out of hospital from 6 weeks so they all knew from really early on. It was a very special Christmas day. Apart from the fact I couldn't drink prosecco, and all the food made me puke hahah.  Not sure I wold recommend being pregnant at christmas! This week brought a delightful new symptoms of insomnia, and then when I finally did fall asleep the vivid pregnancy dreams would start.  I had some weiiiird dreams!! The tiredness eased (thank god!) I also felt SO achy, like my whole body hurt, and I could start to feel my stomach muscles stretching, I just felt so uncomfortable.

Week 10
 About half way through week ten I had awful heart palpitations it was awful, I fainted at work and felt horrendous, I then went down with an awful cold/flu so I wonder if that had something to do with it.  I had been so off my food but my cravings started to kick in. I literally cannot stop eating green granny smith apples.  which is so weird because when I was pregnant with F I craved Pink lady apples.  What is even weirder still is that I am actually really allergic to apples, give me swollen lips, tongue, a rash, but when I am pregnant my allergies go away!! With my diabetes this week I have had a massive increase in hypos, (low blood sugars symptoms of which are blood sugar reading below 4, shaking, feeling weak, blurry vision, feeling sick, sweating amongst other things) so that has been pretty horrid, I use lucozade to correct them.  I remember this with my first pregnancy, and it only got worse as the weeks went on until baby was here.

Week 11 - 12
So I thought I was 12 weeks on Saturday, and i had my 12 scan booked the Thursday before so 11+5 but they think I was actually 11+2, so I am to return on Thursday for another scan as apparently the 3 5 days makes a big difference to do all final checks, but the monographer was confident that baby was fine and healthy and its just to confirm the due date.  I will fill you in on Thursday with what happens! It was SO excited to see baby, looking like a proper baby this time, we were grinning like cheshire cats and felt so relieved, being a high risk pregnancy brings a lot of anxiety so every milestone feels like a mountain.  This week my sickness has been horrendous! I literally can't stop and its morning noon and night.  Even Fred has started making fake sick noises and says "mummy goes bleaugh" haha.


So thats the first 11/12 weeks for you! Not very exciting I know but I wanted to get it all documented and I was excited to share some of the photos I have taken! I want to cherish every moment, pregnancy is so precious and we feel so blessed.  The final piece to our family jigsaw.

Saturday, 14 January 2017

Finding out about baby #2

So our big announcement is out! Baby P number 2 is on it's way.  It still feels so surreal saying it, and despite being something we both really wanted, I am definitely still in shock! What have we let ourselves in for!

So let's rewind.  We had decided to start trying for baby number 2 back in June 2016.  This decision definitely felt bigger than deciding to have a first baby, well baby number 1 surprised us but you know what I mean.  there was more at stake this time, we had Fred to consider and we wrote pro's and con lists for baby number 2, we put a lot a lot of thought into it and came to the decision that yes we wanted to try for baby number 2.  We knew we didn't want another winter baby, mainly from a 'spread the cost of birthdays and christmas point of view' and it would be nice to have something different but we also decided if I wasn't pregnant by October we would stop trying as I didn't want to be due around the time I am due to be a bridesmaid for my gorgeous friend in August (sorry Jade!),  and that we would try again from June 2017.  October came and no blue line appeared so that was that, no more baby attempts for now. 

Fast forward to November, and a week before we officially found out, I just had this feeling, I had a few little odd symptoms, all the same when I was pregnant with Freddie before we found out.  Crazy sense of smell, couldn't bring myself to finish my prosecco (VERY unlike me) and I had no symptoms of being 'due on' which I would normally have.  And something in me just knew I think.  

So after we returned from Centre Parcs on Friday 18th November, I popped to waitrose and bought a pack of their pregnancy tests.  about 8pm and it was negative. I had been so convinced, I was pretty upset as was Chris, I had a little cry and we had a little cuddle.  I woke early on the Saturday, excited for one of my best friend's baby shower and decided to do the other test as it was a twin pack, again was negative.  

Just as I went to throw it in the bin, I noticed the faintest, faintest line.  I thought it was my imagination, so took it out into the daylight, and yep there was definitely just about the faintest line. I showed it to Chris who said he could also see something. We must have looked hilarious squinting at the tiny stick, holding it up into the light, shining our torch on it!  I took a photo but it was barely visible. 

 So Chris popped to Asda and bought a Clearblue digital. And there it was in black and white letters.

1-2 Weeks. 

poor chris had just been dragged out of bed, whilst I was all dressed up for a baby shower!
The next part of the story should be happiness and tales of laying together imagining our new baby.  But a few hours after I returned from the baby shower, I came down with the sickness bug Freddie had had the week earlier.  It was awful! And made me quite anxious as to whether baby would be ok.  I don't think we really put much thought into it for a few weeks as we had a lot of other things going on in our life keeping us busy and I wanted to try not to get my hopes up as there was the chance the sick bug could cause something to go wrong.  We could only hope.

I started my 5mg of Folic Acid which is recommended for Diabetic Mothers, booked in with the Midwife and booked in for the bi-weekly diabetic antenatal clinic.  I was feeling very nervous how I would manage a few hours at the hospital having to concentrate on everything to do with my diabetes and pregnancy with a toddler in tow, usual circumstances would mean my mum would have helped me, but with Dad starting his cancer treatment that wasn't going to be an option.  This pregnancy is going to be difficult in lots of ways, but I want to treasure every moment as I think it will be my last.  I cannot wait to have another little peers, make Freddie a big brother and complete our little family. 

Wednesday, 4 January 2017

Wedding Series - The Boys!

I am pretty lucky to have so many gorgeous men in my life right?

I knew straight away that I wanted the boys in blue suits.  I am not sure if its traditional for the bride to pick the suits or if it is supposed to be a surprise but Mr P was more than happy for me to organise he boys!

I knew I wanted blue suits and after looking at about a million we settled on a gorgeous blue suit from Moss Bros, it was Ted Baker and was in the sale so we were able to hire them for £80 per suit, which is pretty good I think.  Chris had his best man and 3 ushers including his brother and my brother.

I found a great company online called Swagger
and Swoon and would highly recommend them for all your tie/pocket square needs.  they were so helpful and their service was amazing.  they were so helpful with sending out swatches as it was difficult to get the right colour for my dresses, but they went out of their way to help me and I ended up going for a gorgeous coral tie and pocket square.

The suits had a lovely shimmer to them and looked gorgeous in the sunshine. They wore braces, brown belts and brown shoes too.

Chris' best man gave him some gorgeous cufflinks engraved with his initials.  You know men they don't say much but I know it meant so much to Chris.  Chris and his two best friends really do have the best relationship.  I found out from the wedding photographs that the buggers snuck out on the ROOF of Salomons and reenacted the famous titanic scene on the railings.  honestly... boys will be boys.

For the Groomsmen gifts, I decided to do it from me and was so excited about what I had planned.  I gave them a big gift box and inside was a hip flask for each of them engraved with their name and usher/best man and the date, There was a bottle of whiskey and a cigar each, because god there is something sexy about a man in a suit with a cigar! No, just me?!

Chris and his best man absolutely smashed their speeches, they were the best, most emotional speeches I could have imagined and I love getting them out to read again.

James and Scott literally did not leave the dance floor, although their dance moves and goings on with blow up microphones were questionable.

Thank you boys, Love you all x