Saturday, 18 February 2017

Bump diaries - 16 Weeks Pregnant

So Tuesday saw me turn 16 weeks pregnant! I always feel like 16 weeks is quite a milestone and I was definitely excited to reach that 4 month mark, especially as we are now so close to the half way mark. 
Since my last post things have been a lot better.  Mr P had a few days off of work over my birthday and we managed to make a start on our bedroom renovation that we have been planning for a few months.  It isn’t quite finished yet, but you can’t rush perfection as Mr P always says and it is going to be gorgeous when it is complete, we’ve got some lovely new low lighting that I am already imagining snuggled up under feeding baby in those early hours.  I am really excited about adding a little crib next to our bed!


Week 15 saw a little less sick, but unfortunately I cannot say the same for week 16! I was so sick on my birthday I didn’t even eat my own cake! Boo! A pregnant birthday is not an experience I wish to repeat haha.  I am still so nauseous in the morning; I have to work so hard to push through it to get out of the door with Fred, I have to breathe through gritted teeth to stop myself from being sick.  I have also been SO tired this week, like I feel as if I am back to those first few weeks with the extreme fatigue.  I should probably just get used to being tired for the next 18 years.  I have been getting a lot of uncomfortable stretching pains along my hips and my C-section scar has been quite sore, which my midwife told me is likely to get worse, oh joy.  My favourite symptom, as I had with Fred, is lovely hair growth, my hair gets lovely, long and thick when I’m pregnant, my nails also grow lovely and long and also so strong so I am enjoying giving myself lots of mani’s.  Unfortunately though, the hairy tummy is back, pregnancy is so bizarre! I have also had a few headaches and one horrific migraine, I was hospitalised with a migraine in my last pregnancy so I kind of knew it might be coming, it was so awful luckily not as awful as last time, and I hope they don't continue! 

I am still pretty much off carby foods, although I have been managing to eat more main meals at dinner time instead of just salads.  I am forcing myself to eat more protein too, mainly just in chicken.  My main cravings are still fruit mainly satsumas which really help settle my nausea, and a new one this week is cheese and crackers, although I haven’t actually had any because the craving for them comes at night, and nothing is getting me out of bed.  I have given in to the craving of a McDonald’s cheeseburger a couple of times, which completely repulses me after.  But mainly I am still living on a diet of salad and fruits. 

I am totally relying on my new hydr8 m8 to keep me hydrated and it has actually improved my


Touch wood but things are going so well in this department.  My average blood glucose is 6.6 which could do with being ever so slightly lower and I would be really happy with it being around 5.5-6. I have been having a lot of hypos in the early hours of the morning and am generally waking with a reading around 2-3 at around 7, so I am starting every day with 100mls of Lucozade.  I have lowered my insulin rates for these times but nothing seems to make a difference to them.  I am still having higher readings mid afternoon but only in the 7-8 region, which is not too bad.  If I was not pregnant those readings of 7 would be pretty perfect but while I’m pregnant the lower the better and the ideal is for my glucose readings to be sitting around the 5 mark.  It has been a dramatic improvement in just one week so I am sure another week and they will be even better.  Well until pregnancy hormones set them off again! It really is a constant balancing act.  I also got a new insulin pump that should help me keep tighter control with all the new added features it has.


Baby rolls, gender decision and maternity clothes:
15 weeks brought those first magical baby rolls, I’m not getting them every day, but some evenings they are really strong, not so much kicks yet, just little rolls and the familiar popping sensation I had the last time.  I can’t wait to have the strong kicks from the outside so the boys can bond with the baby too.

Before I was pregnant we always said we didn’t want to find out the gender the next time around, and when I was first pregnant we were sticking to our team yellow decision.  However at the 12 week scan we got a little clue about the gender, and something the sonographer said made us think she knew that our guess was right and it’s left us absolutely desperate to know.  I am convinced I know what we are having and I just don’t think I can wait.  Once I am past 20 weeks I will be having regular scans so there will be a lot of temptation to find out and I have no willpower.  As much as I adore the idea of team yellow, we will be finding out the gender at our 20 week scan. 

My bump is so different this time around; with Freddie I had a very high, very distinctive bump from really early on. This time though my bump almost seems like a spare tyre. I took F swimming and felt so uncomfy in my costume, I didn’t really look pregnant I just look like I have a weird randomly placed podgy pot belly.  I ordered a big maternity haul from Asos and nothing looked right at all, I had no bump to fill any of the tops or dresses, just this weird low down bump, I did keep the maternity jeans because my others were getting pretty uncomfy but they look a bit odd, so I am sticking with my big baggy jumpers until I have a distinct bump! I tend to take my bump photos on the morning I have work as I can show a little bump in my dresses if I use my hands to point it out!

I have some other pregnancy and new baby related posts to go up soon, so I will probably next do an update after our 20 week scan, and of course a gender reveal, eeek!! 


Friday, 3 February 2017

Bump Diaries - 13 & 14 Weeks Pregnant

Finally, I am 14 weeks pregnant! It feels like I haven't got far at all.  Because of my 12 week scan and the two date changes, I was 12 weeks pregnant for almost three weeks haha.  but I officially have a due date of the 1st August.

13&14 weeks has been tough.  I have been really struggling.  Pregnancy symptoms on top of the stresses of every day life and a toddler who thinks sleep is for losers, and I had a little break down.  I just felt like I was suffocating in to-do lists and all around me seems to be things I need to do, but I have been feeling so yucky, I just wasn't getting anything done. Currently Mr P and I only have 1 day a week together, and I am finding it tough.  not only do I and Fred miss him, but come our Sundays together, there are so many boring things we need to do together we have hardly any time to just have enjoy our time. Feel like I am on a hamster wheel that never stops spinning.   I feel like I have been letting Freddie down by being a rubbish mum not being up to doing all the fun things we usually do and I feel like I am letting Mr P down, he works long hours and is also having to pick up the slack with the washing, the cooking and general housework, so I have been feeling a whole heap of guilt and generally just a bit upset at not feeling like myself.  Sunday was a bad day, I think all of the above coupled with pregnancy hormones just reached a pinnacle and I literally cried on and off all day.  To be honest I actually felt better for having a little break down, I can be the worst person at bottling feelings and tend to be very quiet when I am feeling overwhelmed, I think sometimes you just have to let it alllll out.  And of course he was so kind to me, and understanding of my hysterical, irrational breakdown, I managed to feel a bit better by late afternoon and we went for a well needed break together to the local swimming pool, it was so good to just forget it all and have some fun.  

Come Monday I was feeling better, Chris has booked some annual leave in March so we can have some time just as a family at home.  Last year, all our time was spent with wedding mania, then little breaks away and actually I think some time at home is just what we need.  I also got to spend some time with my mum as my step-dad is recovering well from his cancer treatment and we went for a little trip to town and I spoilt myself in Superdrug with some nice goodies and that evening ignored my 'to do' lists, had a hot bath, used my new products and had a gorgeous avocado oil face mask, even Mr P got in on the action! It was just what I needed, and I learnt a valuable lesson; I am not superwomen and I need to be kind to myself, and make time for me.  Anyway enough of me going on let's talk pregnancy!

Sick sick sick.  I have been so sick this week.  Less dry heaving throughout the day but more regularly being sick.  I didn't have such violent vomiting when I was pregnant with F.  I reached an all time low today when I was in sainsbury's and out of nowhere started violently vomiting, all down myself, full on sick.  absolutely horrendous and even Freddie looked embarrassed to know me!

I also keep having really funny turns.  I will be absolutely fine busy doing something, then all of a sudden I just feel 'peculiar', almost like I can feel the blood drain out of my face, I feel hot and sweaty and like I need to lie down.  It is absolutely horrible and although passes in a few minutes leaves me feeling horrid for about an hour, it is awful when it happens at work, I have no choice but to just carry on working and makes me feel quite upset, like I just want to cry and go home.  My blood sugars are fine when it happens, so I think its possibly my blood pressure.  I do suffer with low BP, or perhaps dehydration as I am struggling to drink enough. 

I have lost around 10lbs thanks to my aversions to carbs.  My cravings are still fruit, mostly green apples, red grapes and pineapple. cannot get enough!  I also am eating a lot of salad, and am trying to add chicken or tuna to get my protein etc.  My not so healthy craving has been fizzy sour sweets and ice lollies, obviously sour sweets require alotttt of insulin so I can only eat a few at a time, which requires serious willpower, I have discovered the Natural confectionery Company fizzy worms in Waitrose and they really hit the spot!

Diabetes & Hospital
My sugar levels have been a bit on the high side, which could be the start of the insulin resistency that happens when diabetic women are pregnant. It is becoming all consuming trying to keep my blood sugars under such tight control, and much harder this time round with looking after Freddie too, but I am doing my absolute best. It can be really soul destroying to do everything perfectly and still not have the perfect blood sugar.  My nurse downloaded my pump and we have made a few changes to my basal background doses and my carbohydrate to insulin ratio.  I saw my diabetes specialist midwife and She decided to have a go at listening to baby and we found a lovely strong heartbeat really quickly, it was such a special moment and felt so real hearing the little train beating away.

 Bump, Baby Names and Bedroom Plans
I am loving such a firm little bump now, and want to wear dresses to show it off, in my jeans and jumpers I don't really look pregnant.  We have done lots of planning this week, planning what we will buy and how we will redecorate Freddie's room so they can kind of share, although it will be a while before baby will be in there, and hopefully we may move by then as we had Fred in with us until 10 months.  There has been ALOT of baby name talk too, and we were thrilled to discover all of the names bar one that we love this time are not on the top 100 list.

Super cute outfit delivered this week!
I have had some lovely comments on messages on instagram this week through my struggles, and it really makes sharing my life online worth it.  Thank you guys, I love hearing all about your pregnancies too!